in Him

"the Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way?" proverbs 20:24..

Since the day i learned my parents’ decision, i have found myself in countless situations where i would have to manage that decision..that everytime i woke up, i am faced with the choice between dad’s health and dad’s dream for me. here’s the catch, let me tell you what i have been through in His faithful plan..

two months ago, i made up mind to look for a job, earn for a whole year so as to have the savings that would send me back to medschool. I’d like to work in the field of academe thus i put much priority to universities..engaged myself to the usual process of exam-interview-teaching demo for  three times in diffrent universities.

Weeks after, BulSU-CSSP dean appointed me to be a full time faculty of Psych dept to handle Physiological Psych..

i’d told my dad about the opportunity, but he merely said that if i’m to earn 20k a month, he’d rather take the risk of sending me to medschool…listening to his words contends me not to settle on this.

few days after, ceu dean talked to me and engaged me to work as full time faculty of Psych dept, then rcu dean also took me as part time faculty of psych dept. I’d accepted the offer just  to make the 20k a bit higher to have dad concur with my decision to work in the field of academe..but no.. eventually I found out that I can’t work in three different universities at the same time..that it’s not the same as getting different subjects in UP diliman and settle your schedule…..hehehe..

meanwhile, I set aside the teaching field, looked for another job opportunity…this time out of the country (my last option to beat my dad)..not for so long, i found one company looking for human resource officers..

the next day I decided to visit the office with my dad..and at that first try, i was able to talked to the british employer and discussed my credentials.

.after two weeks of waiting, one Sunday after lunch, the employer made a phone call telling I am already approved to work for the company and expecting me to leave the country the next Sunday..honestly, after that phone call, I suppressed the thought that in a week time..i’ll leave..

…until Thursday that week.. I decided to claim the ticket to Australia-Papua New guinea..
however...

upon claiming the ticket, I learned that I have to get the “visa” first before anything else..hahahah..which I still don’t have

the next keyword, “REBOOK”..i never thought visa processing would take three days and more..no choice left, the company has to rebook my ticket a week after.heheheh…

..days passed by..

the next Thursday I met my med-student friends..they reminded me of things I have to settle first before I leave..

the three university college deans,

medical school LOA

and

my personal things in my dormitory

counting the days ..got only 3 days to stay and settle all these things..Friday, Saturday, and Sunday

Friday morning, visited the universities and talked to different college dean to advise withdraw the application..then went to PLM and file LOA

and gotcha!!

That same day and time.. I learned that I have to do clearance first..which is a five page clearance..im loosing my hope to accomplish it that day thus I went to PIUS ladies dorm to take my things out

 but no!!

 the manager didn’t allow to take my things just because I have to accomplish a clearance first..yeah clearance again!!

its already 3 pm..and I don’t have any options but make the company REBOOK the ticket again (yeah for the 2nd time)..

Saturday, I invited my mom to be with me to attend in a seminar…yeah!! I never thought this was God’s way to talk to my mom …

Sunday, after service,  I decided to meet my mentees…renewed my commitment with them even if..…and despite of….

After awhile, I went home to spend my lunch with family

….

I was sitting beside my mom and my dad is sitting in front of me..

My mom used to share funny stories while we were eating..but that time, atmosphere’s different..yeah..in a way..because they know and they cannot accept the fact that I’m leavin..

.. everyone’s silent..

amidst silence…my dad spoke..

..“Joy mag-enrol kna tomorrow”…

.."God’s shown His faithfulness even from the start, let’s put our trust in Him this time”..

I don't know how to respond on this..but one thing i felt that time..

i want to run from everything else and weep! heheheh

And now..im already at school..studying..and livin the dream He put in my heart..

one thing that I know now..

i am living and moving and having my being in Him