W.A.I.T.

Its been a long while since i wrote a blog, until I stumbled upon this poem. It spoke to me in so many ways and i want to share this to you. Its beautiful, enjoy reading!

WAIT 
by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;

Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.

I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .

And the Master so gently said,"Wait."

"Wait? You say wait?" my indignant reply.

"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!"

Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?

By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

My future and all to which I relate,

Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to Wait?"

I'm needing a 'yes,' a go-ahead sign.

Or even a 'no,' to which I'll resign.

You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,

We need but to ask, and we shall receive.

Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:

I'm weary of asking! I need a reply.

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,

As my Master replied again, "Wait."

So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,

And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting . . . for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .

And He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.

I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.

I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.

You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.

You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint.

You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;

You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.

You'd not know the joy of resting in Me,

When darkness and silence are all you can see.

You'd never experience the fullness of love,

When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.

You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,

But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

The glow of My comfort late into the night,

The faith that I give when you walk without sight.

The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask,

From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

You'd never know should your pain quickly flee,

What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.

Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,

But oh, the loss if I lost what I'm doing in you.

So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see,

That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.

And though oft My answers seem terribly late,

My most precious answer of all is still "WAIT".

"Wait for the Lord; be strong and let your heart take courage; yes, wait for the Lord."(Psalm 27:14)

awestrucked

It's early and the sun is still long on its way to brightening the morning and I woke up with a lot on my mind -- so much to be done, so little time, so much energy needed -- and other things that could easily wear me down before my day even begins.

But it always is the best part of the day that the first thing I decide to do is to meet HIM, right at His presence. Be awed of everything there is in this life. Opportunities and obstacles all fit into the molding pattern to bring out the best me. And each day is different. Each day something new is learned. Each day could be just like yesterday or the other days before today if I opted to. But I chose to be with Him where I am bound to change. It may not always come as something easy but I get that peace that it can be done -- things will be fine, in place, and all as blessings to value.

I am resolved with this: I am born with a destiny, and I am set to be better today and even more on the days to come and actually, for the rest of eternity...

LET's DO THIS!

♫♪...He is wonderful, beautiful, glorious, and matchless in every way!..♫♪

realisation

Being a doctor is not something you have to decide overnight. It’s not a result of your whim or a fulfillment of your parents’ dream. Because if these would be your reasons, you’re entering the wrong profession. Choosing to be a doctor means being committed to a lifelong journey of endless sacrifice.

Being a true doctor is not treating the patient as some hypothetical case from a medical textbook. It is treating the patient as a human being, who possesses a heart that does not only pump blood but a heart that could feel, who doesn’t have a brain that is visualized only as black and white in an MRI or CT scan but has a mind that could reason, who is not merely composed of cells, of tissues, of organs, and of different systems but a human being who has a soul. 

Being a doctor is being able to look at every patient’s eyes and seeing in their depths the hope that somehow you can make one father go home and enjoy dinner with his family, or you can make a grandmother attend her only grandchild’s piano recital, or you can send a mother to be with her daughter as she enters into the complicated life of adolescence or you can transform an infant’s cry to a frolicking laughter.

Being a doctor means being a part of an unimaginable greatness that you can only understand if you surrender yourself to years of rigorous training and incessant pursuit of medical knowledge

Also, after a careful reflection, i realized that being a doctor actually gives a different kind of happiness, a different kind of self-fulfillment, which can never be found in any profession.

if healing is spelled, it looks like this

I remember a proverb on how God enjoys concealing things.
He is equally delighted in discoveries
We ourselves also enjoys this kind of mysteries
of not knowing some secrets and truths, and be in awe when it reveals..

We often wonder when secrets would be told,
and how it spur up like surprises and suddenly occur
We wonder  when the right time for those to unfold
Now here is what i have understood:

The time seems so right
For things once not in sight
for those truths to fully give
to those whose hearts are right to receive

good or bad
love or hate
care or hurts.. doesn't matter really

reasons vary
pains tarry
memories of the past
confronted at last
brings a healing blast

 [Things are hidden temporarily only as a means to revelation.] For there is nothing hidden except to be revealed, nor is anything [temporarily] kept secret except in order that it may be made known.
Mark 4:22 AMP

Choices

Life is a choice.. So how do you choose to live yours?

I have realized in this life that to live it, you have to recognize the different choices you have to face. Things to see.. things to hear.. things to feel.. things to get involved in.. things to avoid.. things to do.. things that comes out from you.

We can not have everything. That is the very reason we need to pick from a number of choices. But here’s the thing, everything that we need is available in that many choices. That is how God  made us live in this world: find ourselves each not lacking of anything and even having abundantly. But, we have to choose what is right. Not necessarily our best choice. Because our inkling of the best, may not necessarily be right for us. But not also just right choices – we need godly right choices. Choosing that kind of ‘right’, assures us of what God sets for us as the best. Each right choice to make us better, to make us whole, to make us complete., to make us who we ought to be.^_^

Pro 22:6 NLT

Teach your children to choose the right path, and when they are older, they will remain upon it.

In You

Lord i will praise You, i will sing to You, my heart will magnify You even if sometimes even singing seems a sacrifice...

This world could be harsh, dry and empty...

but all i have to do is gaze at Your beauty Lord

and all i see is You...

there are just times when I need a hand to hold

someone who'll assure me that everything's gonna be okey

but then in Your sanctuary I find You near..

when i come to You in quiet adoration, all i hear is Your heartbeat....

nothing else matters now than You being near Lord....

nothing is hidden from You..

i could pretend to be strong.. i could wear a mask, but when im with You everything is laid in open...because i know that You will still take me Lord...

all i know is that i find rest in You..

just like the eagle who sits on a cliff and stares at the sun as it sheds its old feathers and

renews its strength,
i choose to be still and fix my eyes on You..

thank You Lord cos i know i can interrupt You anytime, and come to You with tears from my eyes, and yes You would stop to sit still with me and quietly listen to the soft sobs I make.. Abba Father...Daddy Dear Daddy God...what did i do to deserve You?
NOTHING....it was not because of who i am but because of what You've done..

not because of what i've done, but because of who You are...

Buffeting winds still come, but now i'm at peace knowing that i know the Voice that calms the raging winds...

i know You will not give up on me, so i will never give up on myself...

i dont know what the future holds, but i know who holds the future....

i could sing of Your love forever...

You are my life, and i will never tire telling people of how wonderful You've been to me...

of how faithful You were even in times when i was not...

of how i found all roads leading me back to you, no matter how much i stray..

where can i go from Your love?

nowhere.....cos Your love reaches to the deepest soul, Your love melts even the hardest hearts..

i live because of You..

this heart beats only for You my dear Lord..

If Only

My list of “if only-s” could go on forever. Given the sort of fertile imagination that I have, I could come up with an unending list of possibilities if this or that happened rather than what actually transpired. Moreover, we can always point to what is most probable, thanks to science, statistics, psychology (ahem), etc…

Still, we’ll never know and we can never tell. Only God has the final answer, and the final script. And playing victim is never the winner’s option but the whiner’s.  What has happened has happened. What has been said has been said. What has been set has been set.

In the same way, what will happen will happen. What will be said will be said. What will be set will be set. One who chose the straight path will still keep his fingers crossed similar to the one who chose the crooked.  (Most of us should know. Most of us have been through both.)

Although we are ultimately responsible for our own choices and actions, there will always be that invisible but real divine force that will exceed all other factors in the impact that it will have to the events of this world.  Perhaps it’s not entirely hopeless after all. At times we just have to be the meek one, so as not to make a mountain out of a molehill.  Once in a while I just have to be the diligent daughter, the grateful one. So much for those “if only-s”.  God has a plan I know...and I am certain God’s ways are higher and even better.

so i say, all things work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose. rom8.28…i may not understand everything, how things worked, is working and would work, i know i just have trust.

i know that i have fulfilled the two prerequisites for that conditional statement–> i love God and i know i have been called according to His purpose…